I really need Advice & HELP! Im 17 years old & a girl, Please help me!!?

That's normal for you to feel since you were a child that never received it... Though it's odd for the rest of us because we all don't WANT discipline. Lol! You know, do you have any close family members who could take you in during college? Or maybe a friend's mom or dad? You'd be surprised who's a mother or father figure in your life and you would never realize it... :)